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HE'S MY SOMEBODY....

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
he will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put his arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it.

arki fly with me

FOREVER

im

yours

Note: Kadiwa prefers to those Iglesia Ni Cristo members whose ages range from 18 years old to those who are not yet married..

Thursday: July 11, 2009 (10:00pm)

Nagpatawag ng special meeting for the new line-up of Kadiwa Officers.. so both of u attended the meeting.. He will be the Chairman of Missionary, and I will be the Secretary of Social Services.. We planned the Monthly Meeting for Sunday July 14, 2009. Then we came home..

Sunday: July 14, 2009

Pagsamba:

Around 6:20 in the morning, we arrive at Econ Building in Ang Mo Kio St 64.. He went upstairs first kc magbibihis p sya.. He performed his duty as a choir member, then ako naman, sumamba..

Children’s Worship Service:

My turn.. Right after ng pagsamba, 8:30am nagbihis nko.. I prepared everything for the WS.. then 9:45 nagsimula ang WS ng mga bata.. Ok naman ang WS and Masaya din dahil umakyat na c Jean Pauline..

Choir’s Practice:

After ng tupad ko sa CWS, c drew naman ang nag practice.. afternoon, they finished their practice.. I and Jean waited him para pumunta sa place ni Jean to do the sandwiches na ibibigay sa Kadiwa Monthly Meeting.

Sobrang busog namen dahil sa tocino na niluto naming lahat except ate Leah.. lahat kme humawak.. ang mga ulam, Luncheon Meat with egg, Tocino, Chorizo, at special kamatis.. almost 1 year nkong di kumakain ng tocino.. haaayyy… thank you jean.. after eating, tinira namen ang sandwiches.. lagay palaman, then ballot.. enjoy naman syang gawin..

After namen matapos ang lahat, we went to the church.. umpisa na ng registration.. nwawala nun cla Drew, Kuya Steve, at Ka Ariel..nsa knila p nman ang softdrinks.

Simula na ng program.. First, pinakilala ang mga officers.. so tumayo naman kme sa harap.. After nun, upo kme.. then magpapakilala ang lahat ng Kadiwa isa isa..  we should say our nickname, san nakatira sa pinas, at kung available or taken.. mas marami ang mga girls so 2 girls first then 1 boy.. sobrang saya ng pagsagot ng available or taken.. because some are saying im available, im taken, im searching, connecting, waiting, EXPIRED (lol), FOR SALE (haha).. I cannot think of kung anong sasabihin ko na nakakatuwa naman.. hmmm bahala n nga.. I was counting by then.. naku magkakatapat ata kme ni drew ah! Hehe..

I stood first.. I introduced myself.. before I started to speak, our pastor said, “ohhh… mag iingat kyo sa sasabihin nyo ha..” I continued.. “ako po c ka em, galling po ng Valenzuela, then paused, CANNOT OWREDI (singlish version of HINDI NA PWEDE).. I cannot remember if they laughed because Ka Mike was calling me.. lahat na ginawa ko para lng madivert ang attention ni ka mike.. sinasabi ko kay macky nay a ang tinatawag.. para hndi ako tumayo.. u know y?? because that time, Drew was talking already.. I just heard : “ako po c ka Andrew, taga ibayo,  pasay po, AVAILABLE” then hiyawan.. suddenly I looked at Ka Mike and he’s kinda masungit na.. I stood up without me realizing na may kasunod p ung cnabi ni Andrew.. Available…. DATI po.. but actually I heard it.. it’s just that Ka Mike was telling me to go with him and find something for CWS file.. nakatingin clang lahat sakin nung tumayo ako .. alam ko un.. kaya nahihirapan akong bumalik.. nahihiya ako.. and natatakot nab aka galit sakin c drew..

No choice, bumalik ako.. hehe.. parang wala lng.. after pulong, nag picture taking.. hinawakan agad ni drew ang kamay ko.. then bglang tinanong “dinig mo ung last na sinabi ko?” sabi ko “oo” haha! Kinabahan pla sya.. akala nya nag walk out tlga ko.. he said he was planning to stand at sundan ako.. buti nlng di mo ginawa! Hahaha! Pinapawisan n dw sya nun.. e hello!!! Ang lamig sa kapilya.. kinabahan nga tlga sya.. pero sakin, alam ko naman ng bumubwelo un mag joke eh.. I know na may punch line syang kasunod sa AVAILABLE..

Eniwei, sobrang saya.. khit pagod, sbrang saya.. it turned out very successful.. thank God!

After ng Kadiwa pulong, Drew had choir practice again for the Thanksgiving Day on July.. I waited him till 730 pm.. then we went to Admiralty Rd. East for CWS Socializing.. very memorable..

June 14, 2009 is very memorable tlga.. di ko makakalimutan.. sobrang saya.. and im happy.. very very happy kc ka-share ko c drew sa ganitong experience..

Until next adventure……. (*_*)

i was browsing my ate's Friendster Account, and noticed that she had a blog post. and so i read the blog.. the title is "from ex-lovers to friends".. from the title itself, i already know for whom the blog was written.. it's for her First Love, Mark Christopher Simeon. Honestly speaking, Kuya Mark was the ONLY ONE i called "kuya" sa 3 nyang naging BF's.. my ate knows that my trademark on accepting her BF is when i call him "kuya"..

i was in 6th Grade when they started their relationship.. ate was in her 1st year in college life in Mapua.. i remembered, they accompanied me in my Mapua High's entrance exam.. i knew by then that ate was so happy to have kuya mark in her life.. until now, naaalala ko p ang mga bonding moments namen with kuya mark.. we played volleyball sa kalsada ng Dahlia St. sa Fatima, he was always giving me "pasalubong" or something like "pasipsip".. he was the one who drove our Owner-type jeep in my Elementary Graduation.. he was also there during my victorious years in my elementary life.. sadly, nag-break cla.. kuya mark went to Philippine Military Academy in Baguio to study..

The blog form my sister's account is this:

from ex-lovers to friends?

em i busy???? em i productive??? em i missing a lot??? em i neglecting you??? em i depriving you???but still... em im loving you...!!!!

10:50am (30 March, 2009) Singapore Power Site Office

Andrew's giving me a piece of Sbarro pizza! weee!! i can't wait! hehe.. he will be arriving here in Singapore on the 8th of May 2009, 2:15 in the afternoon.. that will be Friday, so automatic, half day leave ako.. hehe.. counting down the days will be 38 days to go.. matagal pa, pero saglit lng yan.. ang gulo noh? hehe..

at this very moment, i want to thank my family.. who have always been supportive of me.. i didn't expect them to give me this kind of support.. but honestly, im very grateful because they're my family.. i couldn't ask for more..

thank you for your understanding.. 2 points na.. dati, i have this "second-thought" of introducing Andrew to them.. alam ni  Drew yan.. nagkaroon p kme ng konting mis-understanding.. strict kc dati sakin ang parents ko.. pero, when i introduced him, aba ang lolo mo! bongga! close agad.. hehe.. i didn't notice na 24 n pla ko at pwde na.. second time na kinausap ko ang mami ko is yesterday about something..

she only said: (thru YM)

minda (3/24/2009 3:43:48 PM): d naman issue un e

super thankful tlga kme ni Andrew because they understand the situation.. hoping for continuous support from them..

we love you all! and again, thank you very much!

March 11, 2009 (9:54am) Wednesday @ Singapore Power SIte Office

Dati, i was thinking of this "long-distance-relationship" thing.. iniisip ko kung effective ba or not.. first, my Ate's break-up with her last boyfriend is because of long-distance relationship.. d nakatiis si lalake.. after 3yrs, they broke up.. and sad because pinatanda lng nya si ate.. on the other side, my friends have this "long-distance realationship" thing.. Cathy is in Dubai right now, her boyfriend is in the Philippines.. but i think their relationship is stronger than before.. they're turniing 5 yerars this year..

kanya-kanya lng tlga ng pag handle yan.. on my point-of-view, if you love each other, maghihintay kyo ng right time until the day na magkasama na tlga kyo.. may mga reasons naman kung bakit magkahiwalay.. and syempre, given na dito ang pagtulong sa family.. love is a form of sacrifice.. if naiintindihan nyo ang isa't isa, you trust each other, and most expecially, you love each other, kayang kaya nyong ma-survive ang long distance relationship..

everything has its own reason di ba? maybe for now, maraming reasons.. but i know, for sure, someday, soon, magkakasama din kme sa iisang country.. hehe.. happy nman kahit malayo e.. bsta may constant conversation, and intact sa family ng isat-isa, magiging maayos ang lahat..

drew, thank you sa pakikisama sa family ko.. i found the right guy.. na kaya kong iharap sa family ko, at magiging proud ako.. i know, my family loves you.. ramdam na ramdam ko.. because they're very protective of me.. but when they met you, prang isang salita mo lng nahuli mo na ang kiliti nila.. thank you dahil alm kong love mo na rin ang family ko.. sayang dahil hindi ko na-meet sila nanay, ate vicky, at etet.. but i promise, sa december, mami-meet ko na sila.. and khit ngyn na di ko pa sila nakikita, i want you to know that i love them as much as u love my family..

March 09, 2009 (1:17pm) Monday

Yesterday, Drew and I enjoyed our last game in Skype - Chess.. That was afternoon after our worship service in our church.. haaay.. Super nag-eenjoy kme sa Skype dahil sobrang linaw ng usapan.. We didn't try the Video Call.. So, after ng game namen, pinatulog muna nya ko ng hapon, 3pm.. and we planned to try the Video Call when I wake up.. 7pm nako nagising.. but he texted me na ihahatid nya muna c ate Vicky sa Villamor.. and pagbalik nya, mag oonline na sya.. ginawa ko muna ang mga dapat kong gawin.. nagluto, kumain, naglinis ng room, namalantsa, nag-ayos ng closet.. d nko nakatiis, tumawag nko.. hehe.. nung pla, he's trying to connect to the internet.. pero wla.. ayaw magkonek.. waaah!!! eto na ang kinatatakutan namen.. putol na ang DSL nya.. huhu..

Kung kelan na-discover namen ang Skype tska nila pinutol.. sbi nga ni drew, isa silang MALAKING HADLANG. haha! nakakalungkot.. nakakaiyak.. nasanay akong kausap sya..

1. pagdating ko sa office, may good morning smile ako from him.. online na sya agad.. khit busy sya sa haus, at least alam kong andun lang sya..

2. mami-miss ko ang "em ko 5min magsasampay lng ako", ang "10min asikasuhin ko si nanay", ang "kumain k na b", ang "anong ulam mo", ang "gisingin mo  ko ng 4:30 kc may ensayo ako", ang "ingat ka pag-uwi at wag kng papagabi"..

3. hanggang uwian online sya.. sinasabayan nya ang working hours ko..

4. pag uwian na, hindi sya mag-ooffline hanggat d ako dumadating sa bahay.. and he patiently waits.. waaaah!!!

5. after kumain ng dinner, usap na kme.. games, kwentuhan until 12am or 1am.. pag wlang pasok 2am pa..

6. nasanay akong kausap sya before i sleep..

Thank you drew.. kc alam ko marami kng ginagawa.. pero nagsa-sacrifice kang gawin lahat un after naten mag-usap.. ginagawa nya un ng madaling araw.. khit 3am na sya natutulog or 4am.. bsta gus2 nya mag-uusap muna kme..

Gusto ko na tuloy umuwi ng Pinas.. gusto ko rin sya papuntahin d2.. pero may work sya.. ayoko mag demand pero namimiss ko na sya.. i know kaya namen to.. maraming paraan.. sabi nga nya, pg ginusto maraming paraan..

drew, u're always in my prayers.. i miss you so much..

this week has been a blessed week for andrew and me.. many unexpected things happened.. we didn't expect anything from God, but He gave us his kind and loving mercies.. drew didn't know that for one week i was praying to God for blessings for both of us.. i told him last week that this week will be a better week than the other.. and so that happened.. and we are very grateful for all the blessings He gave us..

i know that this is just the start.. and i know that through His help, drew and i can make it.. though we're apart, that will not be a dividing wall for us.. i can feel that this feeling i have inside will last.. not only a lifetime, but until the day that we've all been waiting for..

Memorable day - February 28, 2009

Friday night, feb 27,2009, drew told me that saturday will be a "no-talk-in-a-day" day.. it's becoz Sunday will be an important day for our church.. i will not elaborate further on that occassion becoz for us, it's very sacred.. whether you understand it or not, drew wanted to do this -- we're not supposed to talk on the day before that special day.. and so, that happened.. he told me, he will not open his yahoo messenger and will turn off his hand phone.. then, saturday morning, i went to perform my obligations and duties on our church.. i went home very upset and sad becoz there's no message nor calls from him.. when i got home, there's nobody home.. my housemates were on their offices that day.. therefore, im alone in our flat.. suddenly, my fone rang.. it was him! a text message from him saying he missed me. well, i missed him too.. hmm.. i thought ure not going to turn on ur mobile fone.. di nakatiis!!! haha.. i was about to send him a text message that i already miss him.. buti nlng sya nauna!!! wahehehe..

that day, i realized na hindi ko pla kaya.. the whole day, i was thinking of him.. what he was doing, did he eat?? where was he?? and all the question marks and exclamation points have gotten inside my head.. weird!!! but true..

i hope.. and sana nman it will not happen again.. not a single day.. drew, please dont ask me to do another NO-Talk-in-a DAY huh.. i will not let it happen again.. i promise! hehe.. mwah!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

ThAnK YoU 4 uR LoVe

My life was a constant uphill climb
Never got it right
Each one I love
Went through a change of heart

You came and my world turned upside down
You sung a different tune
Can’t let go
It keeps playing on my mind

Now there’s a reason to wake up each day
A reason to shake my blues away
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
Wanna thank you for your love
Thank you. Thank you for your love

Confused , my heart was in a daze
Learned to live with pain
I loved in haste
Then watched it go to waste

You came and brought music to my soul
Inspired me to the very core
You touched me where
No one has been before

Now there’s a reason to wake up each day
I thank the Lord for sending you my way
Now I am whole
A lucky soul
Wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank you for your love

I saw the world in shades of black and gray
Turning blue with every passing day
Just when I thought that maybe all was lost
My life took on a new turn
And it’s all because, it’s because

No looking back, no more pain
No more dark clouds, no more rain
Thank you. Thank you for your love.